Today, you would have been celebrating your 49th birthday.
I always thought you would outlive me, even with you being older than me. Giving the longevity on your family’s side, I thought that was for sure. I know you probably thought the same.
I guess the joke is on us.
So here we are. I am here and you are in a different realm.
You were always a guiding light in my life. So, today, and every day, I will continue to honor your light by being light in my own life and that of other people.
I am not saying I am turning in to Mother Theresa or some other saint. Tampoco, Lari. No exageremos. I might just be nice and kind an hour a day. That’s it.
Kidding, aside you know what I mean. I carry your light around me all the time.
I guess what I am trying to say is that I chose to be light and a positive force. In many ways, I am still trying to figure out how that looks for me in its entirety, but I am marching forward with falls and all.
So, today, I will laugh, cry and enjoy whatever moments life brings.
I miss you and celebrate your light, kindness, playfulness, directness, honesty, laughter, love, energy and your beautiful soul.
Will forever love you.
[i carry your heart with me(i carry it in]
By E. E. Cummings
I carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)